a summer gone

it's gone in a blink of an eye. Horribly fast I've seen my last summer here come and go... I'll miss each and every one of my babies here at home and i wish my life here with all of them didn't have to come to an end. Change can be good, so I guess I'll give it a shot.

when we are dead, we'll all have wings

My senior prom was perfect. I wouldn't have changed a thing. From the surprise pre-prom view from the bridge of the sunset over the water, with background music to compliment, to the grand piano found in the hallway corner wait for just us. This more than bareable night was followed by champagne overlooking the moonlite lake and soft guitar and blankets on the sandy cool beach. My night was filled with genuine affection and gentle kisses, more than I could possible ever hope for.

IvE bEeN tRyInG tO sInG

But sometimes, we remember our bedrooms And our parent's bedrooms And the bedrooms of our friends Then we think of our parents Well, what ever happened to them

You change all the lead Sleeping in my head to gold As the day grows dim I hear you sing a golden hymn The song I've been trying to sing

I had a really, really, rEEAALLY PERFECT moment. Not sure I've been happier, or atleast ever felt this way. It's such a nice change to be happy for once.

welcome warmth

One of the first warm nights and we were out patiently awaiting the summer. It's almost here and I couldn't be more ready. It's going to be amazing. I'm sure of it.

whaaa?

Disturbed last night in concert. Can't hear a damn thing mah ears be ringinnnn. It was a great show and my beer coated flip-flops walking me through the following day of escuola. Saweet deal.

Sun in my mouth

Just had a week off of school...pretty uneventful. Lots of sushi eatting with ciggs and some serious waitinggggg for today!!! Bjork is crazayyyy good and she's on now as i sit with my Lime Coolada lotion scented room in dim lighting, QUITE delightfullll. All is well.

Nighty nighttt my freaks :)

Behind me...

This is sickly beautiful. Would've made SO much more sense and comfort only months ago. This overwhelming feeling I used to carry constantly is almost completely faded and it's strange...I think I like it gone. Atleast, I think.

A slack jaw and single, heavy thud of my heart as I look between themand realise the events that will follow.A gulp as I swallow my fantasies for him and bury them deep. A shrug as I shake off any unjust and un-entitled feelings of betrayalthat threaten to cloud her in my head." Its fine," I hear my brain whisper softly to my heart."He's not yours and she is great"Crying would feel good, but I can't muster a single sob.I wade through my pain with a bittersweet smile on my lips.My love for him has long seemed unrealistic, but I had hooked my hearton these silly dreams.She is an easy friend. Funny, beautiful, social and sparky.He obviously has seen this in her too.Shame he never saw it in me.Crashing into new realities hurt.