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Disturbed last night in concert. Can't hear a damn thing mah ears be ringinnnn. It was a great show and my beer coated flip-flops walking me through the following day of escuola. Saweet deal.

Sun in my mouth

Just had a week off of school...pretty uneventful. Lots of sushi eatting with ciggs and some serious waitinggggg for today!!! Bjork is crazayyyy good and she's on now as i sit with my Lime Coolada lotion scented room in dim lighting, QUITE delightfullll. All is well.

Nighty nighttt my freaks :)

Behind me...

This is sickly beautiful. Would've made SO much more sense and comfort only months ago. This overwhelming feeling I used to carry constantly is almost completely faded and it's strange...I think I like it gone. Atleast, I think.

A slack jaw and single, heavy thud of my heart as I look between themand realise the events that will follow.A gulp as I swallow my fantasies for him and bury them deep. A shrug as I shake off any unjust and un-entitled feelings of betrayalthat threaten to cloud her in my head." Its fine," I hear my brain whisper softly to my heart."He's not yours and she is great"Crying would feel good, but I can't muster a single sob.I wade through my pain with a bittersweet smile on my lips.My love for him has long seemed unrealistic, but I had hooked my hearton these silly dreams.She is an easy friend. Funny, beautiful, social and sparky.He obviously has seen this in her too.Shame he never saw it in me.Crashing into new realities hurt.

I'm hap-hap-happy

eeeee i feel so good right now....never really felt this way before. This is such a change from what I've been used to this past almost year. Finally.

I shrugged them off before my mom walked in my bedroomThe pains of love, and they keep growingIn my heart there's flowers growingOn the grave of our old loveSince you gave me a straight answerIf you still want me, please forgive meThe crown of love is not upon meIf you still want me, please forgive meBecause this crown is not within meIt's not within me, it's not within meYou got to be the oneYou got to be the wayYour name is the only word that I can sayYou got to be the oneYou got to be the wayYour name is the only wordThe only word that I can say

Crown of Love-arcade fire

Gobbledigook-sigur ros

both AMAZING. so is everything right now :)

CaRvInG wItH eAse

So I carved the apple from my eye, and gave it to you before I went away...

I'm in a quite lovely daze. It's something I wouldn't mind getting used to.

Sleeeeeepwalkin

Some pictures with some hooligans and a kiss id love. Beautiful world, it can be.

I feel huge. it sucks. fatfatfat. ewwww. keepin it in though...had a decent day. Found out some upsetting news but things are going well otherwise. I feel like im sleepwalking through the past few days. Haven't felt like ive really BEEN ALL THERE and its weird. its not that im trying to distance myself...all has been really good...but i cant help feeling far away from my own life its weird. Probably just in a stragestrange mood sitting here now. meheehe nighty night. Tomorrows supposed to be peachy, hopefully the day will match the weather!

kisskissgoodnight