Behind me...

This is sickly beautiful. Would've made SO much more sense and comfort only months ago. This overwhelming feeling I used to carry constantly is almost completely faded and it's strange...I think I like it gone. Atleast, I think.

A slack jaw and single, heavy thud of my heart as I look between themand realise the events that will follow.A gulp as I swallow my fantasies for him and bury them deep. A shrug as I shake off any unjust and un-entitled feelings of betrayalthat threaten to cloud her in my head." Its fine," I hear my brain whisper softly to my heart."He's not yours and she is great"Crying would feel good, but I can't muster a single sob.I wade through my pain with a bittersweet smile on my lips.My love for him has long seemed unrealistic, but I had hooked my hearton these silly dreams.She is an easy friend. Funny, beautiful, social and sparky.He obviously has seen this in her too.Shame he never saw it in me.Crashing into new realities hurt.